"A+?" "Ok A-."

"I'll take the A-" - Michael Norasing

A Roller Coaster ride is what I've been through the past few weeks, Work, family, exercise and a big confidence booster just to name a few.

Work was rather bothersome as my existence in the office was questioned, it was rather silly but entirely my own fault for letting it get that far, I had taken up some projects that were considered outside of the job scope and I was not sure if I was able to get them finished, something I have been known to do, take on more than I can chew then watch everything slowly fall apart. I was determined to see these things through and make sure I finished what I started, even if it cost me my job. I have 1/2 assed things before, the difference here is this is my career and not a job I do in my spare time. I think it's safe to say that when my existence was questioned I was confused a bit as my record was pretty good, the office was working well and there had been no issues with my attitude or ability to fall in line. My paperwork and performing jobs outside of scope were questioned with a lot of it being more about upper management wanting to save money instead of my ability to work well and creating a legal way for me to be dismissed should I fail. Safe to say I managed to show upper management that my ability perform under pressure surpassed their expectations and I am currently safe till December, when my contract expires.

I've been playing tennis on the weekends with some friends. I have gotten better over the last few weeks but I need to improve and be more than someone who hustles for balls I am also way to strong on the ball, and trying to figure out positioning and how to properly use my backhand is fun and frustrating but overall I am pleased with my progress but I want to get better, maybe even beat the indians, surprisingly they are great at placinher.g shots, but getting to balls is not their speciality, I must learn how to capitalize on this. The weather is getting colder now, I don't know how much longer we'll have to do this so I'll enjoy it while it lasts.



Confidence is a big thing for me, learning how to be confident in all areas of life is a learned skill, as most people will run from their fears, and stick with what they know, I want to run towards my fears so they are no longer fears. My biggest fear would be the opposite sex. I've never feared being with the opposite sex, I've feared approaching them, as the uncertainty is something I'm uncomfortable with, nobody enjoys being in limbo about their chances with a potential mate where as others don't care and expose themselves so much that the odds will work out in the end. I was at a point where I was very tired of waiting for her. Life is very funny in showing you that good things do come to those who wait, in a stroke of luck I was given an opportunity show all I wanted to show, maybe not everything but I was pretty rusty, I couldn't of picked a better person to give me the chance to do so and for that I thank her for that. My confidence is renewed knowing that given the right timing anything is possible. I think about an episode of how I met your mother when Sarah Chalkes Character tells Josh Radnors character "she's out there, and she's on her way, and she's getting here as fast as she can."