Adiós 2017

What a year. I a lot happened a lot stayed the same and a lot changed. While im sad to see it go, I'm happy to start again.

The world works in weird ways.  Sometimes  it  tells you things that you ignore and other times you completely miss the message.

I took a prerty big pay cut to work closer to home, but the job I took is not the job I signed up for..so I'm in a catch 22 at the moment. Something I hope to change in the new year. I will say there is solace in having my sanity, my time and my life back. So I can't really complain.

The gym has been very hit and miss since I've been back, I haven't been able to discipline myself and eat like crap more often than I care to admit. I'm just too comfortable with my surroundings to make any changes. This is something that definitely is on my list to change next year and probably my most important change that needs to be made. I did this to myself and I need to be better to get myself out of it.

My love life has been non existent for a VERY long time. I'm 35 now, on the cusp of an area of my life where I am on the outside looking at all my of my married friends having kids, and having a life that I always thought I would have. Sad to say it but I feel like a complete failure in this area. I miss the daily interaction of a relationship the stupid funny parts that make it work and all the quirks that come with it.

2018 is the year I tackle the 2 things that scared me. Hola 2018!!!

2017 Almost over!

We're past the 1/2 way point of 2017 now.  A lot has changed, some good, some bad. We'll start with the bad first.


I found a new place of work since I was laid off. but it was the WORST possible place for me to go to. I knew I wanted out of there before my 3 month probation was up but bills gotta be paid yo, so I worked and learned that I cannot work for a place that is micromanaged beyond repair.

 I took a trip in April with some car friends that started out well and ended up almost stranded. I am glad I had them to walk me through every thing and STAY CALM. I almost lost my marbles a few times, but I am glad I didn't.

I gained weight. As I was working the micromanage place I put on about 10lbs on account of not being able to work out and all the stress of being micromanaged. I am not a happy Panda

Now the good news!

I quit micromanage village and found another job that I am very happy and content with.

While on my trip, I learned a LOT about my car and my driving style/ability. Am I a better driver cause of it? not really. did I learn enough that I can be a better driver? heck yea. picking up a few tricks along the way really helps. but for now this has been my favorite good news.


last but not least. I am BACK AT THE GYM. I am way too excited to get back to the gym and get rid of these 10lbs I put on. Let's get sweaty.

-Mike

#finishwhatyoustarted

Where did 2016 go?  it's been an interesting year. a lot changed, yet a lot didn't.

Beginning of this year sucked. really sucked I spent the first couple of months feeling sorry for myself, going to coffees and hitting the gym. I tried my best to keep some sense of normality with all this available time I gained, but all I could focus on was how lost I was, how much I hated the feeling of not having a job and feeling like a failure it had defined me for so long, and now without one, I was lost.

Perspective is a weird thing. When things happen we usually draw on our initial feelings how awesome or sucky something is. I had a lot of time to think about my life, Where was I headed? was my career what I really wanted to do with my life? Will I ever find love? How I was going to turn this sinking ship around? that's a lot of unanswered questions. With nothing but time and lifting to keep me keep me company I had A LOT of time to think about these things.

I had a moment of clarity one evening while out for a few friends. One in particular was very unhappy with their life, specifically their financial situation. Since I've known them they never found their 'career' job, they shuffled from job to job, yet here they were complaining about not having enough money to purchase this car part, pay that bill, eat at this restaurant.

Yet there I was,no job, keeping everything afloat with whatever I was getting from EI and I was perfectly okay without a stress in the world. Despite not having a job, income that was going to expire after the summer, no love life, nor awesome car parts. All of my bills were paid and I had a little bit left over to go out for a beer, I was content.

Having enough or not enough is a choice we make. Something that was abundantly clear that night.

Eventually I managed to sort out my situation and landed a job in a very big canadian company, I'm happy. but I still feel somewhat unfulfilled. Working there has torn me away from some of the things I love, mainly working out. Lifting was a constant for the past 3+years of my life. I worked hard to hit some impressive goals and now I find myself not putting a priority on it cause work has taken a big chunk of time out of that.

I need the balance back in my life or else I'll be bored and unhappy with everything around me.

I'll have to work harder and be better. A year from now I hope I can say I did that.