Where did 2016 go? it's been an interesting year. a lot changed, yet a lot didn't.
Beginning of this year sucked. really sucked I spent the first couple of months feeling sorry for myself, going to coffees and hitting the gym. I tried my best to keep some sense of normality with all this available time I gained, but all I could focus on was how lost I was, how much I hated the feeling of not having a job and feeling like a failure it had defined me for so long, and now without one, I was lost.
Perspective is a weird thing. When things happen we usually draw on our initial feelings how awesome or sucky something is. I had a lot of time to think about my life, Where was I headed? was my career what I really wanted to do with my life? Will I ever find love? How I was going to turn this sinking ship around? that's a lot of unanswered questions. With nothing but time and lifting to keep me keep me company I had A LOT of time to think about these things.
I had a moment of clarity one evening while out for a few friends. One in particular was very unhappy with their life, specifically their financial situation. Since I've known them they never found their 'career' job, they shuffled from job to job, yet here they were complaining about not having enough money to purchase this car part, pay that bill, eat at this restaurant.
Yet there I was,no job, keeping everything afloat with whatever I was getting from EI and I was perfectly okay without a stress in the world. Despite not having a job, income that was going to expire after the summer, no love life, nor awesome car parts. All of my bills were paid and I had a little bit left over to go out for a beer, I was content.
Having enough or not enough is a choice we make. Something that was abundantly clear that night.
Eventually I managed to sort out my situation and landed a job in a very big canadian company, I'm happy. but I still feel somewhat unfulfilled. Working there has torn me away from some of the things I love, mainly working out. Lifting was a constant for the past 3+years of my life. I worked hard to hit some impressive goals and now I find myself not putting a priority on it cause work has taken a big chunk of time out of that.
I need the balance back in my life or else I'll be bored and unhappy with everything around me.
I'll have to work harder and be better. A year from now I hope I can say I did that.
