Happy people come from abundance

No external person/place/thing can bring that happiness to you. - Martin Wong


This statement is perceived as true but you have to believe the statement to understand it. Fully utilizing the concept you have to be free of a lot of things, ego, wealth, career, possessions, greed and hate to name a few. Waking up each day is a blessing in disguise, most of us take that for granted, I am not immune to such. People will stop learning when they've got it all figured out only to fall further down when things things get out of hand. I remember having a discussion with a friend on life and how it's a false sense of security, his explanation about how my career, my relationships, even my mortality is not a guarantee to go on past the next few seconds, I accepted his opinion as I always did, he's always gave cryptic messages about life that I would figure out, sometimes I think it's so I will leave him alone, but that's not his nature, even if it was, I wouldn't know it, nor did I care, anything we talked about had some truth to it, he's rarely steered me wrong, there's no reason for him to start now.

I began my current job with a bit of luck and a handful of experience, cause I stepped into a situation that was above and beyond anything I had experienced before, the world of corporate business where the people can be transparent, the politics are tough and the ego clashes happen more than times than Jenna Jameson has movies. I've been here 1.5 years and I have learned to remind myself everyday that I am Michael Norasing and being awesome is what I am good at, everyone is my equal, your title is just a prefix to your ego and your ego will be your downfall. In the midst of trying to maneuver the corporate world, I got lost somewhere along the way and became dependent on those around me to provide me with the empty feeling that was created by living alone. I began limiting myself to those around me, I came to see that the friends in Hamilton and some friends back home didn't view me as a friend but more of an annoyance, I was happy to see that when I did, which allowed me to identify my value and leave what was left of it. Taking solace in soaking up the alone time I'd recently fell into I made the most of it, busying myself with side projects, re-tagging/listening all my music, watching movies, exercising, typing out my thoughts and reading. I learned to enjoy my own company, enjoy the silence, enjoy my imagination, most of all I enjoyed knowing that the limited interaction I did have, I didn't take for granted. That lesson itself was pretty awesome, I have a better appreciation for the word "friend" and more more importantly a better love of myself.

"Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent" - Steve Jobs

I'd been avoiding a few topics in my head cause they scared me so much, a real big one was death. That quote above sums it up pretty nicely because it IS life's changing agent, it doesn't matter if the change is good or bad death changes a lot of things inside of us, the idea that we'll have time to do things like get an MBA, see your parents, find a soulmate, get married, have a career, all of these things aren't guaranteed, they are educated guesses in the life we live, we make choices and tend to value things that really have no meaning, this is something I am not immune to and when I find myself doing as such, I forgive myself and learn from it, that's all you can do. Striving to create an awesome Life has to start somewhere....... Ala Begin!!!

Cause the story I heard is the people are bored.......

so don't go that way, don't go that way - Blind Pilot


I read a lot how the journey to reach your goals outweighs actually hitting them which for the most part is very true. I can't count the times I have begun a journey only to stop because people said I could not do it, or in fear that I will fail. We've all done that in some part. What separates us? The ones who dare to start the trip not knowing what will happen and the ones who don't dare to take a step out the door. That's what separates us.

I've been in a pretty good spot laying low under the radar enjoying what I've got. I've seen what destructive power people can wield over you when they think they're "better" than you in what they've achieved in their life. Any form of education, work title, material possessions, does not make you awesome in my book, having character, being a good person makes you aces in my book and that's enough for me. I've only met a handful of people like that, I don't even count myself on that list cause I am not as awesome as they are, I strive for their awesomeness knowing that I'll get there somehow. On a different tangent I really do feel like Vegeta from dbz. I never fully understand how some people got to be as awesome as they are and just like Vegeta I want what they have, but I am not willing to sacrifice my well being to have it. I know that if I apply myself and keep an open mind I can get there. They say "better late than never." I think that's right, cause I am pretty d@mn late to this party.

On the flip side I found out some not awesome news at work, I always knew my career was not concrete but it's the path I took and I don't regret it one bit. Somehow going back to school seems more and more like a reality, until I am presented with such a path I'll be cautious about this path I'm on.