And in the morning I'll be with you

But it will be a different kind - Bon Iver

His album rocks so much. That's all I have to say about that.

Finished my weekend feast of food,I could eat like this every weekend but that would be foolish to say the least. I went to my aunts house for the big feast on Saturday and as always I was not disappointed. Everything I ate was so good!! The turkey, stuffing, lasagna, mashed potatoes, curry and the pasta were all awesome, hands down the best meal I've had all year. My uncle is a good cook, dare I say on par with my mom as his pasta and turkey were very good. I look forward to xmas!!!

Everything I've done up to this point should have been a learning experience for me, I still can't nail down what I learned, if anything and most importantly if the experiences had were good or bad, I may never know the actual result of each decision I've made but the most important part is that I made a decision when the time called for one. I've come to see that I am more content with making choices even if those choices end up in failure, I should learn from each failure and move on as each failure from here is an experience I wouldn't of had otherwise, I see what my friend tells me about going broke, cause once your ego and pride are gone you really have nothing to lose and everything to gain. Most recently I've struggled with my conscience, weighing my morals against my selfishness to be or not to be? that really was my question. I've made my choice and I'll never know the result till many years have passed. On this journey I haven't been "wrong" per se, cause every experience I've had allowed me to catch myself from making them again, this I know will be the same, with no result in sight I am eager to see where this goes.

I've been talking to my buddy in Korea, he's changed and I am very happy for him. I sense he's coming into his own being over there, discovering what makes him so awesome. Our conversations are different and I can tell he's growing as a person, I told myself that if our friendship grows apart during this year I'll be ok with that, as people grow their ideas and concepts change learning to adapt to that has been a big thing for me, as I continue to learn and grow I am sure he'll do the same.

I went on a date and though the date went well, I feel like an empty cookie jar with no cookies left. Through the course of this date I had been quite happy and in high spirits but as the night wore on I began to see that this person was very sad inside, I wanted to give them a hug and never let go, but my hug would do them no good, emotionally guarded use to be my thing and right now I am not so sure. As I looked into their eyes I could see that the walls were built and there was no way I was going to get through that, would it even be worth it knowing that someday I would be shut out from the walls I once broke down? At this point I am sure about a few key points, but the rest is up to fate.

One and One and One is Three

Come together right now, over me. - The Beatles

I forgot how awesome This song is, I feel so bad ass when I listen to it, like nobody can mess with me. I dragged myself kicking and screaming through hell with some work projects that almost got me dismissed from my position, needless to say HUGE weight has been lifted from my chest now, projects are over and the world is "normal" again. I went out with Doc and Easy, those boys can really live it up especially when they are passed their point of no return, I wouldn't trade it for anything. This awesomeness I am feeling can be confused as confidence, some say that it's a false sense of confidence but I say a false sense of confidence is better than none at all. My exercising has hit a bit of a plateau, I've begun Interval/Circuit training?( I think that's what it's called) on the treadmill hard for 5-7 minutes then weight train, then back on the treadmill again, I am exhausted after my workout and I hope to melt more fat soon as winter is coming and the last thing I need is to pack on more weight.

The weather is starting to get cold now time for sweaters and fall jackets, I just went shopping the past weekend and I found out that somehow I developed a sense of fashion, it's not great by any means but I do have one, I really enjoy a clean look even if I don't look like it and of course having your sister there to determine what's suitable helps a lot. As the last quarter begins I'm taking time to reflect on what I've learned over the course of the year, and I anticipate that the next time I write it will be long, reflective, repetitive and a good learning tool for myself.