All at once

Sometimes the hardest thing and
The right thing are the same. - The Fray


I've found myself enjoying the days far more than I ever did. The people I surround myself with are just amazing, it's a tiny pack I run with but I can't describe how amazing they are. I haven't been reading much, mainly because I've been pretty selfish and ignoring a lot of outside interference. The hardest part of a plan isn't exactly sticking to it, but making the necessary changes if your plan isn't working and adapt to those changes. Even if the changes don't fit into your initial plans you can make adjustments and adapt, the idea is to keep things moving while keeping your end goal in perspective, for some the end result is to lead a good life, for others it's to be rich or find that special someone you grow old and have a family with. I haven't really defined what my end goals are but I am damn sure that I want to look at my life and have no regrets.

Life in technicolor

Lately I've forgot to laugh at myself, it's an important lesson to learn. I am a very small thing in this world, there are bigger things than me and I lose sight of that at times. This Big business sector I am in is definitely easier than it looks, I just don't have the formula to make big business my career of choice right now, but someday I might, I am too caught up in myself that I don't want to be bothered by it.
I'd much rather focus on the things I care about the most, my family and my happiness. I've managed to keep work below those things. my family and my happiness.

Right now family=gold, happiness=silver and work=bronze. For some people this is just not possible, but you see it can be quite simple, ask any olympian whose won a gold or silver medal if they'd trade it in for a bronze, they'd say hell no, they've worked so hard to get that medal why on earth would they trade down? that is exactly how I feel and I intend to keep it that way

Steady as she goes

I caught the flu that's been going around the office and have been consuming fluids and medication to be rid of this, low and behold today is a big payoff! I feel a lot better than I did 72 hours ago. I am holding steady to a lot of things right now, and it's only fitting that my health is the one that suffers, I am making progress in a lot of areas my main focus being fitness, I have put a focus on cardio now, hopefully I can shed a few pounds to lean myself out a bit. I have reached a nice plateau that I will enjoy for a bit before I change it up again. My personal development has hit a plateau as well and I plan on staying and enjoying it here for a bit before I start looking to change things up. I tell myself that if you wants things done right you do them yourself. Staying steady right now is quite hard when all you see in front of you is so tempting, I am very tempted to pickup a work visa and enjoy myself for a year, but I can make such a decision in due time, just stay the course Mike, you'll get a chance.

I see signs now all the time

This life is not easy to live, love or enjoy, but I am learning, living and understanding how to. Whenever I topple over one obstacle another appears. Lately I've been wrapped in my own head about my career, where do I see it going? do I want to be doing this the rest of my life? Will I be able to find a job after this year? I've been asking myself these questions each day I step into the office, I leave them there when I come home, then I revisit them again when I go into work.

Since the beginning of the quarter the office has been somewhat dead, on account that we let some people go, I for one don't find myself scrambling to impress anyone because I am a department of one, but I spend the majority of my day helping people with their computer issues, the issues are few and far between, some ranging from critical (network is down) to minor(wireless button is not on) I spend each day solving problems for the technically impaired which I do not mind, but I do wonder how much longer I can continue to do this if I am not challenged, I find that my day is very routine based, almost mundane. I take from it what I can and inject fun whenever possible, to be blunt I FIND the fun in work, I enter happy, and I leave happy, end of story.

On top of that my contract ends this year, I have not decided if I will return if its renewed, mainly because I have been toiling with the idea of trying to obtain a one year work permit in Australia, it's been one of my top 5 places to visit and if things go my way financially, I will consider this option. My age and my career are at a point where I can go and try new things, come back and pickup where I left off. I owe it to myself to try it.

The Brightest of the head

If I'd oblige the odds are I'd find
What makes a man is inside, inside, inside - Starfly 59


Tuesday, 2nd of five days and I have just come off watching my favorite show from Monday, Chuck. Last nights show had a point of showing that every man has his strengths and should they defer from them they will look foolish. The line of love is a fine line a man walks, any deviance from the norm can put him in compromising situations. Being who you are in the end may not get you the best girl, but you'll get the girl that's best for you.

I saw that first hand on Saturday evening, I celebrated my coaching victory(4-0 baby!!) by going out to dinner with my extended family. Through it all I observed a married couple who just fit, even with the ribbing of me and a certain someone they took it in stride. Their personalities compliment each other so well, something I admire about them very much, dare I say a little jealous, not in a bad way, but a way that makes me want what they've got, so much that I feel I should start acting, and failing in spectacular fashion instead of just observing and contemplating. There's so much about failure that I know about and yet there's so much I haven't failed at.