Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the "present." - Alice Morse Earle
Mike's Yearly reflection: Review of my emotional , physical and mental state.
Learning to enjoy each day to it's fullest was quite a challenge this year, so many ups and downs I don't know where to begin. I guess I can stat with my emotional state. I've been all over the place emotionally throughout the year, just when I thought I'd hit a emotional plateau, I plummet into the abyss or rise above the clouds. Keeping my emotions in check has always been hard for me, something I've had to cope with for some time, when growing up I had to battle bouts of depression and to this day I still do, but having a close knit group around me definitely helps.
I've never really been able to review my emotional state cause it's my weakest. Learning to accept that those around me are going to pass away someday was such a big shock to my system when it hits close to home. Knowing this is one thing, accepting it is another. Death is a necessary(although it can be untimely) part of life, which has given me reason to make sure those around me know how much I care about them. Death does have the ability to bring people together, it showed me why I need to think about myself and those around me everyday, to be thankful that they're in my life.
My greatest gains this year were from my physical state, I managed to look way sexier than I usually do and for it I gained so much self confidence that it's borderline arrogance on my part, a bit of a drawback. I will admit that what I got out of it is much more than I had put in, right now I look "proportionate" Clothes fit me alright and while I haven't lost a lot of weight. I have more muscles to show for it! yay for muscle density!! What impresses me most is the amounts I'm lifting, what I lift now I was ever able to do a year ago, I impress myself sometimes which can be a good thing!
Mentally I've always been just above or below "normal". This year was just learning to embrace my mentality to allow my brain to roll with the punches and just let it be, allow logic and reasoning to step in when needed and allow myself to be aloof everywhere else. Take my position at work, I walk a fine line and I'm able to do it with ease, a lot of stuff rolls off my back cause I don't play politics and I don't care to coddle people cause for every adult I find, there's 10 pre-teen kids that look like adults, but seldom act like so. I've found that work me and non work me are more in sync than I thought they'd be. Which means less brain activity in having to think about how to accommodate for people who have a lack of respect for fellow co-workers or who don't understand that your job title means absolutely nothing to me. Less brain activity for Mike means more time spent on things that Mike likes.
My job is shifting to Markham and though theres still a job for me, I will not be making the move with the team. I feel like Will Smith in the last few episodes of Fresh Prince (no nostalgic reference needed, cause if you didn't watch Fresh prince you ain't cool). In a way I am glad this is happening, I had thought about quitting for some time but kept the status quo for financial stability, with the move it's given me this opportunity to explore what is really out there maybe go back to school, travel for a bit, or hit the gym really hard and carve out a sexy Jason Statham Body? all of those sound really good to me, but for now I'll be in this cubicle till the end of April. Till then keep safe have a Happy New Year and tell those around you that you love them!
-Mikey
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