I've been stationary and moving at the same time, I've got this feeling of stop motion going on and I don't know if it will continue or just keep going, each time I move I find myself frozen wanting to soak up each moment and continue onto the next. Writing my own story has been an amazing experience thus far, I've been writing from the heart which would explain why majority of what I write doesn't really make sense to anyone other than myself, but I don't write for those to read, I write for myself.
Lately this period of my life has been really interesting, the more I find myself detaching from those around me the more I am drawn to them, like a moth to the flame. For me this is good and bad. A lot of my friends have lives of their own right now, some are getting married, some are having kids, some are getting divorced and some are going back to school. As for me I don't know where I am right now and I am fine with that, I am fine with the way things are at this moment. There was a period of time when I was told in a very honest way an assessment of myself, someone I valued very much decided to let me have it, to say a person can be totally honest with you and just exit your life is very sad and in a way a very good learning tool, a piece of this truth hit me in the gut: "You are also too concerned with the destination rather than the journey of what you want to be and how you want to be as a person. In order to grow and mature into the man you want to be, that takes life experiences and taking something, assessing it and do it differently" I knew right there. Immediately I threw away any credibility in myself, in where I was going and what I wanted to project to the people I loved, cherished and valued. I started from scratch, it was refreshing as people thought something was wrong with me, I really began to help myself and in turn helped others, it's been an awesome experience so far, I will build off this and enjoy each moment
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