Opening is just the start...

To see me for all the stupid Sh*t I've done - Blind Pilot


I've been been in solitude for a while keeping myself busy, I haven't picked up a book in a while, I reckon I'll do that towards the end of the week. I have noticed I've been paying a lot of attention to myself during this time, exercising and getting back to the things I love have helped quite a bit. I was discussing things with my dad last time I was home and I can see how proud he is of his kids. I am quite proud of myself with what I have accomplished so far but I gotta keep focused on my goals and not to waver from them too much, I am pretty close to a goal of mine I just have to stick with it!

Exercising has been pretty helpful for me, I've been going to the gym at my work for the past year and have seen results which gave me confidence in how I look, which gave me confidence in other areas of my life, all in all my confidence level is higher than it ever was, which makes for a happier Michael. My relationships have taken a back seat as I was trying to figure out some stuff, those who I thought of as "friends" are not so friendly anymore, I removed myself from some friendships that were stumping my ability to grow as a person, which has been tough and has led me down this road of solitude where I can't hear anything but my own thoughts. Such a place is scary at first but over time I've become quite comfortable with it. Overall I am enjoying this ride I am on, I feel much better than I did before, I can't see the horizon yet but I know it's coming.