Jai Ho

My mind works in mysterious ways, sometimes I come to conclusions that are so obvious but ignore them to look deeper. There’s snow on the ground and feeling of Christmas is in the air, yet I rarely see this amongst my fellow humans, it saddens me to see as such, but to view them any different is just a reflection of myself, and frankly I need work.

The year has been no exception, I have learned a lot about myself. Some will say it is a blessing in disguise others will say it is a fools way of thinking and I respect their opinion as they are entitled to it. Lessons in humbleness, humility, assertiveness, passion, friendship, relationship, anger and love are some of the areas which I explored at some point over the course of this year. I am truly thankful for those who have taught me these lessons. I find myself surrounded with people I deeply care for and in return deeply care for me, my family has been a great help in ways they will never know, I appreciate them more than words can express.

The few friends I’ve made along the way are nothing short of fantastic, I never want them to change. Today was a great example of that, I did some shopping and it did not go well. I was left feeling not as awesome as I usually feel. I could have been quite cold and mean which is a very immature reaction. I decided to just go elsewhere and rethink about why I was not feeling so awesome. After some tea and a good pep-talk, I realized that it was something about me that made me feel this way, After making peace with this, I explained during dinner that they are not at fault for this and I do not want them to change, the last thing I want to do is make someone feel bad for being themselves, that is not my definition of awesome. The ride home was blast, and all I needed was a lesson I forgot, friendship 101.

The few I keep close to me are my lifeline. That is the U.N. They know who they are and they don’t need an introduction, they are my definition of awesome, I am grateful for having them in my life. They are the only people who are deserving of my time when I don’t have any to give. They’ve been there for me when it mattered most, nuff said.


I am optimistic for the New Year and expect more changes to take place internally, externally, mentally and physically.

Jai Ho indeed!