2019+

Hi. What’s happened since 2019? Life goes on. Lets review.

I got a job at a cannabis company midway through 2019. I enjoyed being in the space, but the lack of structure made me despise the environment. They did me a favour and closed the facility down. I bounced around to a few jobs, and landed at an ‘institution’ I thought would make me happy, but it made me feel like I was a 2nd class citizen, so I moved on. My career is defined by how long I can do this, not how long I've worked at one company.

2020+ was pretty good. x2 things happened… well x3 things. I have a niece and nephew and I met someone. Being an uncle was/is probably the best thing for me mentally. I had been holding onto some demons/trauma for so long cause it was the only ‘comforting’ thing I had in my life, which was NOT healthy, so I began working on them. Being able to deal with trauma is hard as f*ck, but that sweet feeling of peace is worth the work. I’m not done there are still hurdles left. These x2 are going to get the best version of me for their sake and selfishly, mine too.

Meeting someone whose life perspective is the complete opposite of mine was a REAL test for me, I am glad for that and her. I was able to understand not only myself and her, but others as well. We’re all human and want the same things, to be loved, heard, supported, and feel cared for. I learned I am VERY guarded about my happiness and I don’t want to tell anyone about it, which is rather selfish of me. I’m not hurting anyone from it, so I am being selfish with it.

Active listening, not very well. I still suck at it, but am miles ahead from when I started. I was never a good listener, more the observant type, but marrying these x2 have enriched my life more than I thought they could.

I shrank/grew some circles. Everyone tells you your circles will change as you get older and you never think about it till you’ve had some time to meet with past circles when you were younger, you can see how much both of you have changed, it's just life, hell I’d be worried if we didn’t change in some way. I am grateful for what time I can spend with them, it’s all love in the end.

Slow and steady wins the race, consistency trump bursts of effort. I am going to keep pushing into 2024 and make more changes that improve the things I’ve built since my last entry. Going to Enjoy what’s left in 2023 and keep this train moving into the new year. Peace, Love in 2024 folks.