It's nine o'clock on a Saturday, the regular crowd shuffles in

There's an old man sitting next to me,makin' love to his tonic and gin - Billy joel

I'm at this point where I can begin trimming the excess fat from my life, friends, negativity or just stuff lying around, I've been working on simplifying everything, at the same time enjoying everything around me and enjoy it with people I love. I've made the adjustment to being alone, not lonely(those are 2 very different things). I've been working really hard to get where I want to be, not just floating by. I've been looking at those around me that are getting married, dropping weight, or looking for their "soulmate" or just enjoying life and some of that stuff doesn't interest me right now. My parents hound me about being older and trying to find a "wife" or some sort of female companion I just ignore the requests to pry into my life that doesn't really concern them. I am pushing ahead with what I want to do and right now it's simplifying everything.

I was at a surprise party for a buddy from high school who is going into the armed forces. I knew everyone there but I didn't really KNOW any of them and interacting with them was like watching a movie I've watched many times before. I knew when to when to laugh, when to cry, when to joke and how it's going to end. Watching the festivities was a sight I hadn't seen in a while and getting use to the idea of trying to fit in again made me indifferent to the scenario. They were being themselves and I loved all of them for it, seeing their faces and hearing familiar sounds makes for a very loud crowd and a rowdy bunch, I wouldn't have it any other way.

To those who've asked me, I've been seeing this guy for a month, his names Tony and he's so awesome. I'm talking about p90x's Tony Horton. I just began the second phase of p90x and I'm happy so far, pushing myself is very exhausting but a lot of fun. I have noticed gains in flexibility, strength and endurance. I'm pretty excited to see how the next 60 days goes. When I go to the gym now people stare at the type of workouts I'm doing, cause it's not the standard workout with just resistance training there's instances where I use my own body weight after I'm gassed, and just pushing up those 1 or two reps seems like I'm attempting to move the world. The feeling is amazing knowing that I've pushed myself so hard when I can't lift my arms or legs.

I can't believe the first 3 months of 2010 are over already, it seems like it was yesterday I was ringing in the new year with family and friends with party streamers and copious amounts of food, ahh how time flies...