State the obvious. Year in Review

What a year! I thought I was talking a step in the direction I wanted to go, I thought would take me to the next step. Little did I know what was to come from it. Corporate life can be draining and fake to the point where anything that strides outside corporate life is frowned upon. To remedy this I slowly began going outside the norm for the corporate lifestyle, but not so much where I would be looked as an outcast and ridiculed. I injected a bit of humility about the lifestyle, and constructed myself in a manner that was enjoyed by anyone and everyone i came into contact with. All of it came to fruition today as I received the best compliment one can get in my position. (I am Awesome.)

During this transition I had this feeling that some people  viewed me as "better" or "financially stable" on a sub-conscious level as conversations about life quickly became talk about work and money. The frame they had placed me in was beginning to break and I was beginning to ask if they were still my friends. I began to see that I was a cheap laugh to them and nothing more ( I hope I am wrong). At times I had this feeling of resentment from them, jealous that someone like me could be in the position I am in(not glamorous, but it pays the bills). I slowly began to ask myself if these people were really friends if they could not get past this frame they had placed me in. 

Some searching internally led me to confront myself about the reality of the situation, I was at a different point in my life, where things I dreamd about when I was getting an education were now possible if I just buckled down. Internally this is how I felt and it showed as I began to distance myself from them and begin to seek out different people. During this search I would go back to them for release when I wanted to escape the fakery that is corporate life and enjoy myself. I found that I can dictate my level of friendship as long as I control the type of frame I am in. Bruce Lee says - " take what is useful and discard what is uesless"

That's what I did, I took it upon myself to dictate what kind of frame I was in and how I was viewed, I took measures to make sure I was apart of their life as they became less and less of mine. Their venting on relationships, life and work did not fall on deaf ears, I listened when they needed to vent, but I rarely vented to them, if I ever vented subject/incident was meaningless to me, but gave the impression that they were involved in a way that would impact my decision. When I saw that they might not be taking the right approach on a subject I made suggestions. They usually never took my suggestions because to I was still in their frame, but to me they were just the paths I would of taken.

The year is almost over and going about this has served me well up to this point, it does have it's drawbacks but they are nothing compared to the feeling I have when I wake up and know that things are good and the world is at my fingertips!!